Since I didn't have any lessons today, I could lay in bed a bit longer, wonderful 
At 10am I got up to have a glas of mineral water, you know the one with the lemon flavour. Then I just walked around in the house (I'm still living with my parents, thinking about my life and stuff like that.
And then at 2pm, I took my jacket and went to see my psychologist. Because I have been really really busy and stressed during the past weeks, I've had to cancelled like 5 meetings, so it was really great to see her. The last times she mentioned anti-depressions and especially one called Cipramil, and it really scares me! that one of the side effects is gaining weight. And you know, that would make me freak out. But anyway, I was convinced to give it a shot if she would mention it again, but you kno what? She didn't, instead she chose to focus on my eating habits.
I know that my eating habits aren't like the others but they work for me. She told me that I must eat more, otherwise I will be hospitalized, but at the same time she told me that "Elin, you're not anorexic, but it's clear that you have an eating disorder". BULLSHIT! That's all bullshit, and you all know that I am a fat ass!
To be as honest as I was with Eva, my psychologist: I prefer not to eat. At all. 'Cause, I consider myself as a person who has some overweight issues that I really have to deal with! The problem is that noone else seems to have the balls the so "Hey, you know what? You are a fat cow and you better loose some weight, 'cause you're disgusting!". And you know, that really hurts, that noone can be truly honest with me!
So today, I haven't been eating. At all, just as I planned. And it feels great!
